Wow! It's been a while since my last blog....
In time for Christmas i'm sharing you my hot cocoa recipe:
50grams of 70% dark chocolate (if you have higher the better for its anti-oxidant content)
Cliche man pero totoo, ang bilis tumakbo ng panahon! Sa sobrang dami ng mga pangyayari sa buhay ko, minsan di ko na alam kung ako pa rin ba 'yung taong ipinanganak ng nanay ko. 'Yung batang lumaki sa kalye ng pasig.
I was packing some things para sa paglilipat ko ng bahay when i thought of these things...naalala ko 'yung unang malaking hakbang ko papalayo sa minahal kong tirahan sa pasig. Sa loob ng 28 taon hindi pa ako nalayo sa bahay namin...napakalaking lakas ng loob ang inipon ko, marami-rami ring luha ang naubos ko habang nasa eroplano but I did survive the flight. Sa pamamalagi ko rito, nagkaroon ng oras na akala ko diko makakayanan...ang malayo sa pamilya at ang mamuhay sa ibang kultura. Buti na lang loner ako at sanay na hindi maka-relate. Hehehehe! (salamat sa mga friends at family na nagpayo sa akin)...So i survived. Now i'm about to be thrown out sa itinuring kong tahanan sa loob ng mahigit na limang taon. Panibagong lipatan na naman!!! Hindi man ako nangangamba sa pagbabagong ito pero i still feel sad leaving the place. Sentimental!
Habang pinagmamasdan ko ang mga kahon ng gamit naisip ko, dami ko na pa lang na-accumulate sa loob ng halos 6 na taon. I asked myself, gaano kaya karami rito ang itatapon o ipamimigay. The process of discarding...komplikado! Sumagi tuloy sa isip ko ang matagal ko ng pinagmumunimunian.....ang detachment! Disposal of everything i own...everything except some clothes; Magsimulang muli from scratch, maghanap ng bagong propesyon, mag-risk --- in it's true essence. Alam kong kaya ko...in fact kaka-excite nga. Hindi pa nga lang ngayon...pero sigurado...mangyayari!
Nakakainis na nakakatuwang tingnan ang mga boxes, hanggang kailan ko kaya bibitbitin ang mga ito?
Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't
I know
You dont really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well i've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long
Chorus
Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday
But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and i'm not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye
Chorus
Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday
How i feel about govt off'l elections: As a child: I didn't really care. I was always outside playing. Maybe a little euphoric bec. of the campaigns that i didn't really understand the meaning. As a Teenager: Still no cares, but was glad for the few days of no classes since Rizal High School's usually the voting site. But i did cry when F. Marcos left the country, wasn't really relieved when C. Aquino was elected. Early young adulthood: I was really passionate about elections. I even volunteered as a watcher...(kakangawit palang magsulat sa blackboard) Late young adulthood: Still passionate but more on anger passion, by that time i was beginning to sense the hopelessness of phil. govt. When Erap was elected, i told myself....'i'm leaving the country!' I worked hard on convincing those around me not to vote Erap. I absented myself from work just to attend the edsa revolution. Adutlhood: Apathy, i told myself...nothing's going to change. Whoever we elect, they'll always be bulok (corrupt)...there's nothing we can do. I didn't need to vote. NOW: I guess reaching the bottom would always result to an upward movement...thus sprang hope and new beginnings...new ways, fresh and full of hope. I decided not to waste my energy (my galet) to those sitting in gov't positions instead i realized if i begin to channel that energy in looking out for my family, friends and those i can reach, take care of them in the RIGHT and best way i can, that's good enough help for our country. As was said, always go back to the basic and what's more basic than the family? Make our family the gov't, serve them! And as what my only human idol said...kabataan ang pag-asa ng mundo! Educate the children! (I don't mean sending them to school literally...but really educate them starting from our homes) Vote wisely if we can but don't expect it'll change things, it won't. Change would always come from within with God's help. Instead, start good ripples. I believe even a small pebble can create ripples to a vast and deep sea. That's my hope, maybe not for us living now but for the next generations! The election is fast approaching, i don't really believe that my vote will count since i don't know those people, nobody really knows them except themselves. The real voting happens everyday within ourselves, electing yes or no in our daily decision making is what really counts!
Nanay used to call me 'amerikana.' Not bec. i look like one but bec. I only eat pandesal or tinapay sa breakfast. They'd usually find me crying quietly not saying anything even when asked what's wrong. Tito Meliton would always guess why...no pandesal for breakfast. Then nanay would go on blabbering of 'kasi tanghali ka na magising, akala mo kung sino kang amerikana!' Hehehe! But my dear tito Meliton, would come with the pandesal and not only that, he'd throw in a glass of choco drink (what was that again, the choco syrup, one in the dispenser wherein you'll pull out the top and then squeeze the body?) Anyway, that was during grade school. Later in my life the 'amerikana' title had been forgotten but was replaced by....'akala mo kung sinong mayaman!' LOL! I really find this ridiculous. What have i done this time? Well, i still get up later than everyone most of the time; I'd always find reasons to avoid washing the dishes; I'd complain when we're having fish (but i do love galunggong) or gulay for dinner; when I'd get up early, it's bec. I'd go biking or jogging; sometimes, I'd go swimming and all these were thought of, 'things only rich people can do.' There were times when I'd stop doing those things, afraid of the accusations but then I'd realize why stop? I love doing those, keeps me fit and gives me pleasure. If i can have 'pandesal' or 'tinapay' for breakfast, then i must be 'amerikana' and if i can do those things then i must be rich!!! Reflecting on that, indeed i am rich!
God gave us everything we need and money is just one of them (so i don't really equate being rich as having lots of money.) Even when i was a child (clearly i didn't have money at that time) i had everything i needed. My family provided me of things i couldn't buy for myself and my environment, aided with my creativity provided me the rest.
How to be rich? Look up, smile, work your mind and be free.
Feeling poor? Ask yourself why... really, why?
By the way, i am now sick and tired of eating bread for breakfast, i now eat sinangag or pansit or whatever is left the night before for breakfast. I've learned to eat gulay but wouldn't crave for it. I still wake up late during my off days. I still find reasons to avoid washing the dishes.
So, what would my title be now?
Am i rushing things up? I'm not that old yet but we all know how we are, always trying to peep into the future. There are times when i just sit and think of what life's gonna be when i'm old. I have this scene over and over in my head where i'm living in a cabin deep in the forest, with no computers, no tv, no money but with a transistor radio, a cellphone and a 4x4 car. This is my dream; this is what i'm wishing for myself when i retire; this is the life i'd like to live. Raising some chickens, cows, goats with a dog and a horse a monkey perhaps, lots of trees, vegetables and flowers, bonsai. Probably a butterfly garden. As much as i would like to keep a zoo that would probably be difficult since i'll be old then but i'll keep my garden so beautiful that i'll open it for public viewing during weekends.
My time will be spent tending my backyard, fishing and (i would love to learn how to wood sculp so i don't really have to buy my furnitures) and wood sculpting. In the afternoon, it'll be good to paint, play the guitar or just simply doze off in a rocking chair (where i'd probably die of old age--->> cliche?) I'll take my jeep, drive down the city to update myself, visit relatives and friends bringing something from my garden.
Thinking of those, calms and soothes me... snapping back to reality, i'll think of how much of that will come true...these? Old, no money, cellphone, garden, the occassional visits to loved ones? As i mentioned, i'm not that old yet but in my journey, those things would be a constant resident of my thoughts.
'The leaves are falling, the sky is getting darker;
The day and the night almost touch each other;
The wrinkling of skin, missing memories;
Time grows nearer, Lord, you've got to hold my hand.' mgm
Six or 7 years ago i've created a list of the *things i need to do or have before i die.* It was supposed to be a hundred things but i found out that there weren't much and i was able to wrote down only 12. Some of it i've already done, some still in the process of being fulfilled. Today, i thought of another thing to add in that list....roadtrip without predetermined destination. Not necessarily driving a car, could be on a boat, train, plane or just plain hiking. Maybe a hundred days of just travelling with a backpack of clothes and my camera. Without rules, without predictability, without the unnecessary stress of preparation. No excess baggage!
Wow! A hundred days!!! Well, i should probably start working on thickening my skin for this one!!!
'Birds fly to wherever they want,
They open their wings while befriending the wind;
Flying solo or in flocks, their freedom i envy the most.' mgm
Hehehe! Feeling busy na naman these past few weeks. Wala naman talagang ginagawa. Siguro talagang daming araw ng pasok kaya parang kapag dumarating galing sa work eh bukas ng computer, nood ng sa piling mo at bituing walang ningning, di na makapag-aral kahit sandali tapos paglingon sa orasan eh nakatutok na pala sa dose yung mga kamay.
Tagal ng daytime ngayon, noong isang araw eh halos 4am na nakatulog ni hindi man lang dumilim. Siguro kaya mabilis ang oras kasi ang haba ng araw...huh? eh kasi pag winter sobra namang haba ng oras na tipong bawat butil ng niyebe eh napapansin sa pagbagsak nito. O siguro naman eh talagang maraming gawain...lalo na ngayon na busy ulit ang mga daliri sa pagtipa ng gitara. Ooooh! Mas masarap pakinggan ngayon, mas may taginting.
Pero hindi rin 'yon dahil sa pagtipa ng gitara eh natigil naman ang panonood ng tv. Saan nga ba napupunta ang oras? Kung iisipin meron namang nagagawa pero parang kulang, parang laging pinipigilan ang orasan sa pagtakbo...ano bang hinahabol? ako lang kaya yun, na parang laging mamamatay sa paglubog ng araw... kaya parang dapat magawa, matikman lahat? Siguro nga...pero ang paghuhugas ng plato, paglalaba ng damit at pag tabas ng damo sa bakuran eh pwedeng-pwedeng maghintay yan bukas...o sa susunod na day off!!!
I can't add any more photos to my photo albums and of course i don't want to pay and upgrade. I've already deleted some photos from the old albums but still...it won't download the new ones...i just gonna have to post it here to share it. Hope you enjoy it! I sure had a fun time shooting these...
although it was raining today, i took out my camera and opened the shutter. I've been imprisoned by the winter...rain won't stop me! Just hope my camera feels the same way.
The other day while at work i noticed the dramatic setting of the sun. The sun was as big as an eating plate looking at it one meter away and as usual i felt the restlessness in every fiber of my muscles. I went out the balcony and tried capturing it with my phone camera but did not take the picture. As my co-worker said it won't appear as dramatic...so i prayed...'sana po maganda rin ang araw tomorrow pag-uwi ko from work.' Yesterday, i woke up with a smile looking up at my window...YES! The sun was beaming!!!
Later that day...around 8pm, i went out, borrowed venus' bike since it's faster (to my regret it's too short for my legs and strained my thigh muscles) and rode as fast as i can near the lake. Oh i was tired! I saw some potential shots on my way there but didn't stop. Afraid i won't catch the sun at its best. The hardship i went thru riding the bike on muddy road which forced me to leave it on the road and to just run on foot. After crossing an uneven, muddy field...i dropped my backpack, searched for my equipments and looked for a good site... Not much since the water is still high but i managed to get some shots to my liking...the sun although wasn't as big as when i saw it the day before, was magnificent! I stayed few minutes after it set just sitting on the coold sand and at that time my cellphone's ringing unceasingly!!!
I risked my eyes looking at it directly!
Five minutes or so after sunset. Nahabol ko di ba?
Sometimes you just wish time will stop....ooops...it just did!
Oftentimes my time just fly when i'm surfing the net. When something interests me i dive in the net and surf...for hours esp. during winter when i can't go out and play. As i mentioned when somethin interests me, that is, most of the times about technology...new mobile phones, cameras, lens, computers...not that i want to buy but let us say, i love keeping myself updated and technology really amazes me.
I recently got interested in smartphones owning a nice one myself. BTW, for those who read my blog about my decision on what cellphone to buy...I did not go with the NOKIA 8800, i went to my original ideal phone...the MOTOROLA A1000. If i'll review this phone, i'll rate it the best cp i've ever navigated including those i didn't own although there are some issues involving wireless connectivity...and i was shocked when i saw no keypad! Going back on smartphones...these are the phones that might interest you...read on.
NOKIA E61:
Boasting of 75mb memory with extendable minisd, of course battery life as consistent with nokia...better than most of its rival.
The features (not all mentioned here) sounds good, i just hope it's functional...nokia strikes me as a device with sooo much features but really hard to maximize or use since the system hangs most of the time.
MOTOROLA Q:
Now this phone if there's a way i can afford it would be my next phone...to be released 1st Q this year. I'd consider it the most stylish compact phone ever and hopefully one of the most functional!
If you remember the razr v3 for its style and thinness, this is thinner not more than 0.4in thick, weighs 115g and with qwerty keypad. It'll be 1 of the first that'll be using ms windows mobile 5.0 platform meaning....you can almost consider your phone as your computer since it comes with Word, Excel and powerpoint viewer...very advantageous to businessmen but of course the platform hasn't been proven yet. Unlike the nokia E61, it has a camera of 1.3mp. Supports almost all video and audio formats; has bluetooth, irda and usb connectivity...no wi-fi here! Not a 3g phone and it doesn't have a gps receiver?!!! that made me think....why?!!!!!
HP IPAQ HW6940: A coming soon too, well this might be on the lower edge amongst the three in terms of style. Screen resolution of 240x240 pixels compared to 340x240 resolutions of nokia e61 and moto Q. Also the heaviest of the 3 at 175g. 
WIll also be using Microsoft® Windows Mobile™ 5.0, not 3g but has Wi-fi and a gps receiver!! Memory of 45 MB available for persistent user storage and 64 MB SDRAM for running applications...what's extra special about this phone...none that i know of.
TREO 700w: It's been introduced as the 'the everything machine' and after reading its features...i cannot agree more!!! It Will of course be using the newest ms windows mobile 5.0 with ...wow...128mb of 'non-volatile' memory. 
Supports mmc, sd and sdio cards. It's quite heavy though at 180g (oooh) but has excellent ergonomics with qwerty keypad and has a writing stylus (nice combo) not to mention that the keypad has an integrated phone dial pad (as with all the phones i mentioned above.) Most tasks can be done with one-touch button. Has an external antenna, A little short on the resolution of 240x240pixels; has a 1.3mp dcam. Definitely a great phone, for those who are always short of time!
The long awaited spring is finally peeping thru...the falling of cold winter snow is now displaced by the frequent pouring of rain and in coordination with the rising temperature, the knee-leveled snow that stubbornly overstaying on the ground is now slowly melting. I feel disgustingly thankful of the mud that's now sticking on my boots and of the mud that is now lying on the once immaculately white ground. It has been a very long winter...complaining is not the term but impatience. A couple of weeks ago, i saw a bird building its nest on a tree that's bare and covered with snow. Just like the bird my body and mind believe that it is time to explore and just like the bird...my wings want to fly me to places familiar and places i've yet to discover.
What do i miss?
I miss the sound of transistor radio in the morning during a stormy season. Waiting for 'walang pasok' announcement.
I miss climbing trees. The thrill of being at the top of a guava tree while swaying with the wind.
I miss brownouts. The kwentuhan, playing with shadows and just being home.
I miss waiting for the magpopotpot and magbibinatog in the afternoon. Hmmmm...yum, yum!
I miss wading in rain, muddy water. Kahit na mapagalitan ako.
I miss biking from our house to greenhills and the ever dangerous metro manila roads. I realized biking won't make your legs bigger.
I miss waiting for my salary in robinson's galleria...and finding out it won't be due until the next day.
I miss attending the mass in Edsa shrine. The sermons of Fr. Soc.
I miss painting. Messing up a canvas, getting my hands dirty with paint.
I miss going out in the middle of the night just to buy whatever in seven eleven with my pamangkins. When the street is not so busy.
I miss my guitar. sorry i sold you.
I miss the payphones in the Philippines. The irritating line in front and at your back.
I miss my room in pasig. Small, not fancy but full of creation and it was cozy.
I miss gardening. The roses i collected, the bonsai plants i planted...all gone and dried now.
I miss the cycle of having a crush. The start of pa-cute-an, the kilig, the DOB, the closeness then the slowly fading feelings ending in nothing and then start allover again.
I miss creating things with my own hands. The sawdust, sanding remnants, the smell of varnish...rough hands...the smile on my face after.
I miss the unpredictability. No idea what tomorrow awaits. The excitement of getting up in the morning knowing something new will happen.
I miss swimming in the pool. The smell of chlorine, the sound of splashing water with every stroke, the calmness and the sleepiness it brings.
I miss OTPI. Sleeping in my station, the breakfast in mcdo, the long breaks in g4, filling out the blanks in reports, listening to the voice of dr. bermudez.
I miss lugaw with tokwa't baboy sa rosario, tapsilog sa pag-asa, candy sa garapon ni ti irene, the hot newly baked monay nila alvin, squidballs sa makati and langlang ni nanay.
I miss my pets...arjews, my very snobbish, aristocrat cat. my only cat who knew his name; bush, my 100-peso dog. he was so much like me...playful, hindi nangangagat, loyal, determined, he didn't give up when he was runover by a jeepney. Wherever you two are now, thank you for the friendship.
I miss crying out my pains in the adoration chapel of edsa shrine.
Lastly, i miss change.
Hahahaha! That's my sarcastic laugh to what's happening to our beloved Philippines!!! Amidst the catastrophe we're experiencing right now eh we still manage to fight each other.
I believe so much in Filipino talents but oftentimes we use it for the wrong things. Hundreds of people are dying in leyte but....yes...ang galing natin we managed to stage a coup. Instead of appreciating the rising of peso value...yes again...we brought it down overnight...(tara na, padala na tayo ng dolyar at lapad sa pinas!!!)
So, do we still wonder why our mother Pinas can't get out of the shit she's in? We bring her with us...down, down, down! Can't we realize the wrong things we're doing? Why don't we ask ourselves...am i helping? instead of asking....is she/he helping?
i believe the declaration of state of emergency is just right for us. I support the president's decision. At this point i believe we need to be disciplined since we're acting like 2-yo kids.
your embraces calm me...you're my home.
what's the saddest thing that can happen to you? for me, it's believing in something for so long and finding out in the end...it doesn't exist! not only bec. it made a fool out of you but mainly bec. it's time wasted!
I WILL BE THERE by kyla
Whenever you feel all alone
whenever you feel there is no reason to go on
when there is doubt in your heart
when there is no one in this world that you can find
who will give you support in everything you do
and who will believe that you will see things through
i will be there, i'll be there
i'll be your shoulder you can lean on
i'll be your friend you can depend on
i will be there, i will be there
There are times when things go wrong
yes there were times when you just feel you don't belong
there are days when things don't go right
yes there were days when you are not willing to fight
you will need someone who will tell you it's ok
someone who believes, believes in you all the way
i will be there, i will be there...
It's been a while since my last blog entry, although i have lots of things to write about i just can't find the time to do it. Ironic actually since i have so much time being back here in Norway where everything moves so slow, it seems. Haaaay! Can't help but compare my lifestyle here and when i'm there in my beloved Pinas...If it's possible to do something while asleep maybe i had done that too. My 6-week vacation was very much used, may not be enough but reality check...got to work too!
Having spent the holidays with people i love made all the difference! Wow! It's not the same at all without them...i felt the rush, the anxiety, the enthusiasm and the impatience to do things! I got emotional, hurt, elated, disappointed, satisfied...i can go on and on but my point is..
. i felt human!
As a vacationist, of course, i experienced a lot of things together with my family...my still growing family with the addition of MJ and JR...thank God both males (don't ask why.) We've been to taal crater riding horses back and forth. Climbing a volcano on a horse wasn't that pleasant but exciting. We even enjoyed the waves during the boat ride...we're really a crazy weird bunch! 
Our trip in subic was worth it....not much rest since even when we were not out we still found things to do at sbma housing...we played tagu-taguan, played cards, bring me and i even got myself drunk and threw up (first time.) Speaking of first time, i got to climb my first wall in extreme adventure. Everyone tried it except si nanay, yet (newly stitched) and the kids. That's what i like about my family...they're all on the go and game whatever activity we have and of course they all share my fascination with nature and sense of thrill...so we came back to EK, our third if i'm not mistaken...this time, i rode the space shuttle! Hah! I was nervous while waiting for our turn and that was a whole hour or more since we went there before new year (long line)...i even got into a fight with a group of young people who were smoking in a crowded, small covered area...i mean hello...well not actually got into a fight, i just caught their attention that it's bothering me (badado ilong ko non) and they got irritated. My niece and my cousins said they were shouting Demokrasya! as if i was a dictator! Hahahaha! I'm not, just getting old!
It see
med i enjoyed my trips to subic and ek that much that i went back there with the Hagickhicks people. And yes, we went to the 'peryahan' in subic. We rode the roller coaster which was more frightening than the space shuttle in ek that i shouted as loud as i can (talagang litaw ang tonsils) but i enjoyed that ride...enjoyed all the 20-peso rides.
Come to think of it, i enjoyed everything i did. I guess it's not really how cheap or how expensive you pay, if you know how to enjoy, make the most of everything and kung alam mo kung paano tumili...then it's all the same when you're home!
wondering why i stay here in norway? I don't really know...but God knows why and i just have to have faith and follow my destiny. But don't be surprised if one day...i'll just pack up my things and head home. Who knows?
We've been having sunny days since monday so yesterday i planned what i'll be doing on friday (today) and since i've not been going out shooting i thought it'll be interesting to shoot macro of snow or anything that's frosted and of course winter landscapes. So i packed my tamrac with my digicam with extra battery, a tele/macro-capable sigma lens and my old 28-100mm nikkor lens and saddled my tripod on the side (naks!!!) Excited, i exausted my brain, thinking of where to make the shoots, what to wear so i won't freeze out there, what food and drink to bring that'll be light enough and how much time i should allot for walking (thought i go catching sunrise again.) So thinking those and some side trips ng brain ko, i still managed to get a 6-hour sleep.
I hope plans always turn our well but no this day, my day off and the day i planned to go out and shoot...ang sama naman ng panahon!!! (kasi naman ayaw makinig ng weather forecast) I can still shoot but the images won't be striking and most probably will be full of noise so it'll just end up in my recycle bin so why bother? I was fine with that and since it's still dark...i thought mas masarap matulog....haaaay and so came venus from work! hehehe not from night shift but from am shift....i was surprised, too. Eh kakaalis nya lang eh!! It turned out it's her day off too. We spent the whole morning talking and planning, therefore i din't get the sleep na sinasabi kong masarap.
In conclusion, there's no perfect world if you're not living in a box! Ano daw?
anyways, at least i managed to widen my knowledge in PS...not bad for a first time (telling that to myself!)
What do you mean? Does any thing in this world have a meaning?
You wake up everyday, do the chores you planned before sleeping or maybe some extras that somehow just keep on popping up making the day a little shorter...you think. Then you'll sit down, read some books or maybe surf the net from your very expensive laptop and then yawning...you'll retire to bed and plan your next day. Where and when will it end?
An infant, after 9mos or almost 10 for 'primies' of being kept in her mother's belly goes out, cries, makes her mother cry for joy and then dies of SIDS after a month. Just like that....stops breathing! For no known reason!
John, your typical employee, earns 17k a mo., goes overtime almost everyday, complains that life is hard...'still need a couple of K's to afford that cellphone i saw yday.' What???
What with some of us who talk about misery or loneliness? Read some blogs and you'll know what I'm talking about. Are we complaining? Making papansin? Does it help to write about it? How? Well, I'm not really waiting for answers. Everything you'll say will be wrong...yes or everything you'll say will be right. Does it matter? Why? Ha! This will never end...that's the tragedy of life. You can ask as many questions as your board exam has but you'll never know the right answer....so what's my point then?
Meaning doesn't exist! Reason is just a fantasy. Faith is everything!!!
Haaaaaaaa!!! I told myself i don't need a new mobile phone!!! My phone is almost 4yo now and i've already conditioned myself that if ever...i'll buy a tough, practical and not a fancy mobile phone. I almost got myself a nokia 5140i but then 3g phones surfaced...what am i to do? a person has to try it somehow. So i started burning my eyes surfing the net for the best and here's my list:
Nokia: I never thought i'll go back to nokia but eyeing their N series, nokia has so much to offer...i'll look out for the coming of N92 next year if i can help myself...and wait for it. I was considering N90 but holding it...i don't think i can handle a bulky phone like that.
Motorola: Well as i mentioned above i've not been interested in nokia and my phone now is a samsung well it may be good to look for another model to try it all, you know. The motorola RAZR V3 caught my eye...wow! slim! style! again, i almost bought this one before i flew home sa pinas. I have very strong will power, i guess and convinced myself i don't need a new one. I found out i was wrong. I do need a new one since my old phone doesn't accept new sim cards there in the Phil. So with my criteria 3g phone, i studied the motorola a1000 which has everything....really! pda, gps, 3g, mp3, video, still pics, etc...what more can i ask for? So...i decided this is the phone for me.
Yesterday, lumuwas kami ng kabihasnan...hahaha! We went to Oslo to shop. We've been to every mobile phone shop, comparing prices (venus was looking for N90) and i was looking for my ideal phone...the A1000. I didn't find it not even a picture. Pero syempre i examined every phone on display. So eto na...the nokia 8800 was never in my list since it doesn't have the 3g function but after i held it, felt it....hmmmm...i fell in love with it. It's not as functional as compared to a1000 and the n series but i have a camera, mp3 player and a computer so i don't need those functions anymore...i just need a phone!!! Hahahaha! The power of the mind!!!! So the verdict...
it's NOKIA 8800!!!
http://europe.nokia.com/nokia/0,8764,73095,00.html
What do you think? I would like to stop the mobile phone manufacturers so i can stop myself from changing my mind!!!
Ever thought of looking up your name sa google? You might be surprised to find your name there. Hahaha...coz mine is...so if you're looking for a person, you might want to google it. Who knows?
Isang email ang natanggap ko tungkol sa buhay noon, kung gaano kasaya ang mga panahong iyon. Korek!! Sa katunayan sobrang saya noon na hanggang ngayon eh napapangiti at napapabuntong hininga pa rin ako sa tuwing naiisip ko.
Ang swerte nating mga naging bata noong unang panahon. Unang panahon kung saan ang mga bata eh nasa labas, sa mga bakanteng lote at naglalaro, nagtatakutan at naglolokohan. Kakalungkot hindi dahil sa hindi na ako makakabalik sa panahong iyon...well, syempre matanda na! Pero nakakalungkot para sa mga kabataan ngayon na halos di mo na alam kung ano ang ginagawa...nandyang nakangiti o nagsasalitang mag-isa...may kausap pala sa cellphone (sabagay di lang mga bata ang ganyan), mga batang hindi na teks ang hawak kung hindi mga cd's, mga batang hindi mo na makita sa bubungan o sa taas ng puno (punong bayabas na sumusunod sa ihip ng hangin o punong alateris/aratelis na nasho-shortcut ang baba mo dahil lintik, sobrang rupok!!!) dahil busy sa paglalaro ng playstation sa loob ng bahay. Nakakalungkot dahil sa edad kong ito eh na-realized kong hindi lang sa ekwela natututo ang bata, hindi lang sa pag-aaral kung hindi sa paglalaro sa labas ng bahay, sa pag-i-imitate sa tunay na nangyayari, sa paghawak o pagdama ng mga laruan at kalaro at hindi sa mga laruang katha ng isip, hindi sa kamangha-manghang graphics; hindi sa komplikadong sitwasyon na malulutasan sa pagpindot ng kontrol o paghahanap ng cheats sa internet...hehehe! Kakalungkot para sa kanila...'wag na lang nating ikwento kaya...what you don't know doesn't hurt di ba? Ulk! Nabaluktot na naman ata ang utak ko!
It started snowing today...cutting short the not so good autumn. Well, that's good since snow indicates the beginning of winter, the coming of Christmas and on that day...i'll be home again!!!
How do you know when one is simple?
Is it because she/he wears plain shirts? Doesn't own a car? eats cheap food? has nothing to say? Well...not for me. I'll say you're simple if you don't complicate things. That's it!
Hmmmppp! Just finished reading HP6! I cried, really cried! Hahaha! No one can blame me...the heart of the story died in this book! The half-blood prince killed him though it seemed like it was the best thing to do to save an innocent one (who's not really that innocent!) Wish i can turn back the time or better yet just use the pensieve!
Anyways, before i disapparate and before everybody sees me under the google earth...have a great day everyone!!!
july 24, 2005!!! A nice day! Lalalalalalalalalala!!!
E V E R Y T H I N G I S A C Y C L E!!!
i have it for 32 years,
nearly lost it several times.
forgotten it's importance at one point
Never really appreciated it though i'm still trying
doubted it's purpose
i've shared it with some, giving a part of it
improved it the best way i can
got surprised that i can do so much out of it
got lost on my way finding it
realizing it has always been there.
i have it for 32 years
reminding me if not everyday that
it's temporary and a gift at the same time
i have it for 32 years and i pray God will let me have it for another 32 years!!!
"Sunday bloody Sunday...I can't believe the news today, i can't close my eyes and make it go away. How long, how long must we sing this song? but today..." yes today is Sunday it can be bloody later since i'll be on duty. Anyway, this is just a follow-up blog to my last one. I took so much pictures that i can't post it in here so i'll be posting it in my photo albums. I had fun making this one. Ok...have a nice Sunday everyone!!
Hehehehe! Just making sure that i make use of the internet cafe here in the city. Though we have a computer back home, still It's something new. In an attempt to divert our desperation (for whatever), we decided to visit oslo in one of its busiest days...the celebration of midsummer day. Indeed, oslo was crowded when we arrived. After checking in at a hotel, i grabbed my camera and together with venus we disappeared into the crowd.
Of course, it wouldn't be complete without dining in mcdonalds (our sort of tradition when visiting oslo since it familiarizes us to Pinas.) There were many artists displaying their talents on the street. There were a variety of bands, on the spot painters, the human statues, etc. Of course, i took some pics though it may take a while before i can post it. Since we're here, we decided to watch a movie(mr and mrs smith) . Today is sunday, we woke up at 7am and headed out to the port and took some pics. My very loyal and patient VA though not that interested in photography, stood by my side and offered suggestions. Well, i did bribe her but i know she'll forget about it later. Unexpectedly, by noon the streets were busy again... with tourists. Now, after this short stop we'll search for a catholic church and hopefully, we'll be able to at least say a little prayer. Hmmmm...have to go now so as not to pay so much for this short stop. Ha det!
All Norway celebrates Jonsoksdag, also called St. John's Day, St. Hans Day, or Midsummer Day, June 24th.
Before Christianity came to Norway, Midsummer Day was a celebration of the summer solstice. It was considered bad luck to start new work projects on Jonsok eve. People stacked piles of wood at traditional sites, usually at the top of a hill or on other high ground. The ceremony would begin with community members dressed in their best in procession to the bonfire site. The fire was lit at twilight and the celebration would begin. Music was played while children played games and adults danced until dawn. It was a time of great joy and celebration. The celebrants believed that starting fires on Jonsok would protect both people and animals from illness; the fires would strengthen the sun.
In early Christian times, religion adopted this pagan holiday. Jonsok night because a time for contemplation and midnight mass. When the country embraced the Lutheran faith, the celebration remained virtually unchanged; a Lutheran service was held at midnight that included communion. Today Jonsoksdag has lost most of its spiritual significance. It is still celebrated as a time to share with family and friends.
***being here in Norway, i'm lucky to celebrate st. john's day in a different way than the way i've been used to celebrate it in the Philippines. Norwegians/Norwegian families go out in their back or front yards wherever the sun is, grill whatever they can grill and sit there until the sun sets. And just like what was mentioned above, they gather to a particular place, have a bonfire and dance. They really celebrate the midsummer day....why shouldn't they when they've waited six mos or more for the sun to shine!!! It's their time to enjoy their environment and it's not uncommon for norwegians to walk without shoes (i don't know in oslo), neither is wearing two-piece while doing household chores. These days, reading books, watching tv, and staying inside the house are a no-no and gardening, sun bathing, swimming and basta outdoor activity...are in!!!
Yesterday, i went out to document how long the sun shone. I took a picture of my favorite house (shown somewhere here) and it was taken at around midnight. Yes, daylight? Well, hear this... at around 1am i could still see daylight and few days before the sun usually appeared at around 2:30am (i really sleep late these days since i'm hooked watching ikaw ang lahat sa akin and kampanerang kuba) so doing my math...the sun disappears for 1.5hours max. Imagine, i'm living south of norway!!! Well, hopefully i get to visit the north one midsummer day...looking forward to that!
Hmmmm! Got some bad news or is it? For us who were left by this beautiful person, it is bad! We're left remembering how it was when she's with us. The hardest part of death is accepting our loss...that there'll be a space where there once was this person playing a role in our life. A loss that we know whatever we do for as long as we live will never be replaced, that when we wish it to be there, it'll never come... not again. It'll forever bring a pain that'll make you smile and wet your eyes. A loss that we have no control....a LOSS! I often times wonder if God smiles when we die...thinking He'll be having his child back...again on his lap.
A friend passed away a few weeks ago. I remember her daydreaming of her dying and being with God again. It was her dream, her wish and so for her...her passing is the best news ever! And i would say....'ikaw talaga, praning ka!' and she'd say, 'eh totoo naman ah, bespren.' As much as i want to be happy for her, i can't...not now. I never got to see her this year (when i flew home), i was actually expecting to meet her and her partner since we made a deal last year to have a roadtrip again this year. Another sad thing is...i thought of contacting her several times but i got caught up with things that i thought i must do.
she's one of the sweetest persons...one of the purest...one of the kindest...a person who not once ever said anything bad about another person...this is true, as in literally. A person who weird as she was...ok kasama! She's in love too often and too fast. Starstruck! A poet wannabe...i believe nagawan nya ng poem lahat ng kilala nya! I was lucky...she made me several poems. Hey Cherqui...this time ako naman ang gagawa for you...
An angel i met...nothing but kindness;
A crazy child...the purest heart you have;
Troubled mind...you fought for so long;
Leaving me...this place of pain you left;
thanking you...for your beatiful soul;
peace you wished...peace you got;
Smile for me...God beside you!.....love you, bestfriend!
Wow! Five weeks went by too fast! I loved my vacation. I got to do so much, learned so much and ached so much, too. Haaaay! It was hard leaving Pinas, this time I managed not to cry coz I knew when I start...tears would just flow endlessly. Got back this Sat. after lunch and at I was already drowsy from lack of sleep. Lack of sleep? I wasn't sure if I slept alright during my flight but I was pretty sure I did get more than 3hours of sleep. Jet lag!!! Yes, at here, 12mn in Pinas. I regularly slept around -12mn that's after memories of Bali We missed work today...lungkot pa eh...we slept at last night and woke up around . I still don't feel like going to work tomorrow but I guess I have to. I feel sick, it's like I’m getting a flu. My head and my joints ache and I feel flushed. What do you think? Funny coz it's our third day here and we haven't got out of the house. Sa pinas...it never happened. There was never a day I stayed the whole day and night sa house. Iba talaga! So we're thinking...that we really have to find a way to make things happen...find a way so we'll never have to go back here and leave the Philippines
When will i find love, where will she be and if she's out there would she wait for me?
How would he know me, would i know him is there no answers to all my questioning...
The above song is dedicated to all those who are still looking for love. Let your heart flow with the music, close your eyes and think of that someone who makes your heart skip, who makes your breathing faster than usual, who makes you sigh and daydream making your mother scream just to get your attention to buy some 'suka.' Hahahaha!
Well, i don't feel sorry for those of you who haven't found it yet...coz i know...one day it'll come to sweep you off your feet!
Strange emotions wash over me, i am falling, falling helplessly....I can't make out the lyrics anymore.
Wow! I'm counting down the days...9 days more and i'll be in my homeland again!
Does love fade when one fails to meet the need of the other? Does it die? Will you salvage love by fulfilling that need? Does love weaken as the need increases? Or does the need increase as love fades?
I watched a movie entitled 'milan' where the young lady asked, Do you love me bec. you need me? or do you need me bec. you love me?
Which is which?
My mind's so tangled up.
I haven’t been to church for almost a year now. Before I left the Philippines Philippines.
I miss attending mass every Sunday and going to Robinson’s afterwards. Hhehehe! I miss my gimmicks at home, the egg hunting or my special ‘pa-effect’ to celebrate Easter Sunday with my ‘pamangkins’ I miss the waiting for the parade of senaculos which when I was young scared me a lot. I miss the sound of the loud speakers relaying the irritating melody? of the ‘pabasa’. In which my ‘nanay’ often participates. Unlucky me! Lol I miss the holy week specials of tv stations. Meron pa ba sila tito, vic and joey? I miss the seventh heaven marathon. I miss waiting in front of our house watching the hiking participants (mostly teenagers) trek their way to Antipolo Church I miss the lumpiang sariwa ni nanay (since we can’t eat meat). She makes the best lumpiang sariwa ever. I miss being bored with my family at home since there’s nothing to watch on the tv, nowhere to go to and there’s this implied ‘masamang magsaya’ atmosphere. I didn’t get this when I was young but its purpose is to have time to reflect and pray. By the way, is there still anyone (dyan sa pinas) who believes that taking a bath after 12nn is masama? This notion brought me a lot of discomfort when I was young and made me think of things like blood coming out of the faucet….haaaaa! praning!! Thinking of those things brought me back from where I came from (for a while) but not changed the fact that I’m here…thinking….thinking…thinking…I should do things while I’m here. Start my tradition. I’ll take a long walk today and think about it. This Holy Friday, I won’t be opening the computer or play the ps2 and I’ll have no-meat meals as an act of penance.
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